So today I was going to bitch and moan, it's my time of the month and constant shit seems to be happening. I'm becoming disheartened with things tired and annoyed.

However in the past 10 mins something happened. While having a cig with a friend of mine she let slip I had been the subject of discussion last nigh at a work night. I am always me I don't put on faces and try no to hide behinds masks and it seems it has been recognised. I found it lovely to hear hthat yes while people didn't know how to deal with me they now see that is me... I haven't changed. To hear somone who I didn't think got me say how they thought I had a heart of gold and wouldn't say a bad thing about anyone was lovely and made me grin.

Katie also asked about Seany if he minded me going off to other places and going out without him, she knew we have an open relationship of sorts. She asked if that had stopped..after being told how honest it was...well I told her I'm polyamourous..."so what there are 4 people in a relationship?" no...3

In her credit she just accepted it, asked who the third was and smiled (you could see in her mind going...right hold on a mo...ok it's Joel makes sense). I'm lucky to have people like that who while she may not understand it knows I wouldn't do anything behind anyones back, and will only look out for people.

I think I'd like my eppitaph to say..."He tried to help everyone, and even succeded with a few"...which is better than my previous idea of "He always knew he would die this way, impaled on a catapult driven narwhale" or "Hoped he wouldn't cause the appocalypse but knew he might"