My mind works in strange ways

Ok so as, generally speaking all the interesting ideas come to me while I'm out and about I've decided to try and blog on my iPhone. Let's see how well this goes!?!?

Yesterday I had a strange realisation. It was a simple moment... Seany had ruined another sheet by spilling poppers on them (as you do) and so we were in debenhams looking at new sheets. We got onto talking about our new flat, the one we will be moving into, and I mentally started to pick things out for it. We sectioned off areas that we would both decorate, and stated things we would no allow in the flat. It wasn't much but it was enough to make me smile, and kept me smiling for a bit. The simple realisation that yes this was he first full on adult relationship, and that the ones I had previously were just kids pretending. Kids playing at happily ever after and not realising he work that you need to put in. I'm at the stage where eveythint is VERY real. Thinking about our future ( Those who know me know I DO NOT PLAN ) and making those hypothetical hard questions... What would I do if...

I know I have prolly said it before and I've prolly said it about others without realising the full weight behind the words... But... It feels like I'm going to be stuck with thus one for a long long time. This realisation, which to be fair is something I've know since about a week after I met Seany, has actually led me to interesting questions. I've always been a DNR, meaning if I'm in a situation where a doctor needs to do life saving work in a you either take this or die, I would refuse. Now I'm not sure, I don't think I could do it. Not because I think it's a cheats way out...cos I still technically agree with it...it's just I don't actually think Seany could survive without me. And if I did go I now see why people try and plan for their death so their other half doesn't have to. It's not morbid to plan these things it's actually showing just how much you love them. For most it is a statement of "I will face this so you don't have to" and for most the thought of heir own death is a scary one.

On another note my friend and I have decided there should be a new protocol for trying to pick people up. The conversation should go something like this;

Me - "hey I'm Joel"
Him- "hi I'm ***"
Me - "cool, I think your cute"
Him - "your kind of ruggedly handsome in a troll under the bridge way"
Me - "....thanks"
Him - "some of my best friends are..."
Me - "ok yeah I get the idea. Aaanyway I would rather like to take you home and fornicate"
Him - "sounds fun"
Me - "after that I'd like to tie you up and whip you"
Him - "aces"
Me - "with a view to owning and training you as a slave"
Him - "all sounds good to me, when do I get my collar?"

We thought if EVERYONE just stopped playing around having second agendas it would all be so much easier! So, people try it lay your cards on the table and see what happens