Meh

Because I worked Sunday, I have today off, by some miricle Seany also has today off. Its been nice to have a nice day together, playing games and chatting . We havent had much time together and so its nice to be able to kinda refresh and do the couply things Ive missed.
However I had (before I knew seany was going to be off) arranged to go and see the boy I liked. This is the person who I met and there was that instant spark, and he was saying he felt it too. There was the connection I had been looking for for ages (btw if people dont understand why im seeing another boy while engaged to Seany...look up my posts about poly). Now for the first week of chatting we were texting constnatly all the time. Now, well, there are suddenly fewer txts...a lot fewer...and now im not sure what to do. Anyway we had arranged to meet and i sent a txt yesterday saying...well are we doing anything...if so what..and I got nothing back...3 txts later and a msg on Grindr i get a message saying I dont think we can meet. WONDERFUL.

I think what people who do this dont realise...I may like to make plans, if you cant meet FINE im a big boy I can handle that...JUST TELL ME so I can work out what to do instead.

Unfortunatly this also means that I think I need to give up on this boy, which is a shame as he did tick all the boxes of what I needed, and I him. So now I either need to make a choice as to whether to start again or to bother. I have gone through all the normal things of clubs and most sites...and ive had terrible luck, things like this just keep happening.

So...what do I do?

In the meantime im becoming fairly jaded about the whole thing..being let down that much will do that to you. whenever I meet somone who is cute I will imediatly think...oh they say they like me...but...we all know whats going to happen.

SO im going to try and enjoy my days with Seany, and try and not think about it...but anyone who knows me knows I need this so much that thats not going to work that well...oh well