As most of you will also know I am looking for a pet. By pet I do not mean a cat or a dog but a boy. I am a Master, I own my slaveboy, who I love. My boy also has his own pet, who I love and help look after. With the addition of Ben (Seanys pet) to our lives has made us so much happier and content. Ben is PERFECT for Seany, he is infact a little version of Seany with the same mannerisms as him and kinks...its actually very sweet to see.
I have been searching for pets for years, and have had an end view in mind for a good 7 years. A kinky family, a poly amorous situation which is more in line with a hippy commune but It works. Seany searched for a pet for about 6 months or so, and now he has Ben, but the more I search the less I find. Now that I am engaged people view me with total suspicion, see me as a seedy partner who is just wanting to fuck around, without actually letting me explain myself.
Yes I am a Master, but not in the porn films or CSI sense. I do not (contrary to popular belief) walk around in leather trousers the whole time, and demand that the boys sit in the corner of the room not facing me. In fact its a caring position, the Master should look after the boy, should train him up and encourage him to be the best he can. The boy is a companion and friend as well...and should respect the Master and know that he only has the boys best interest in mind. That is what I need, a boy that I can look after and train up from scratch. Boys that will need me that will want me to guide them. Ideally I see a couple of boys, with everyone being happy and content with each other. The problem is finding people that will understand that.
When talking to people on a kink site, you get those that just want a quick shag...which doesn't interest me. Or you get the people who believe that they are scum and should not be allowed to look at the Master ect...which as you can probably tell doesn't quite fit with me. Also... I don't really want a slut who has fucked around most of the gay population of London, I hate that moment when you see someone you know who you are attracted too..and then find out everyone in the room has fucked them...it turns me right off.
When I say to people that this is what I need, they generally think I am just being greedy, and don't think I am happy with what I have, think that by me needing this i am belittling the relationship that I have with Seany and normally wont recognise the relationship I have with Ben.
I would like to categorically state now, that I love Seany and Ben completely. Seany is my fiance, which for someone like me who wont plan for the future, the statement that he is my fiance should show just how much I love him. Ben has made both Seany and I so much happier, and adds completion to our lives, Seany's especially. Now I just need to find my version. I have been waiting for so long, I'm not prepared to take second best, I need to find someone who is as perfect for me as Ben is for Seany
The problem is that when I see someone that is attractive I have to do the math. The population in England is roughly 61 Million, of them there are aprox 1.5 to 2 Million gay men, then of those we have to see how many gay men there are. If I take the amouth of people that are on recon as a rough guide that means that there are a few thousand spread over the uk, then if I take out the...over 30s for instance that will cut it by 2 thirds...As you can see its rapidly reducing the chances of me meeting someone who is cute, attracted to me and kinky in the real world.
This means that I am kinda stuck to one of 2 options. Either I use Recon, slaveboys, gaydar or I use a tranquiliser gun and net. I have tried option one and that doesn't seem to work. i have met the occasional genuine guy, who is nice and not an utter twat. But the majority of them seem to be guys that chat, that make a connection and then get afraid or just decide to fuck off. I have lost count of the amount of guys that have done that.
So instead I think I am going to go down to the armoury, and get me a tranq gun. I have a net, I have cuffs...Just need to find someone who wont struggle too much!
Or there is an option 3, anyone reading this gonna take pity on me?...scrap that pity sucks.
More on the family situation later
Saturday, 23 April 2011
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Awww Joel, you're a man after my own heart. Every word echoes the way I have felt or the way I feel now. I wear a persona when I go out, as I'm sure Seany can attest, that covers my insecurities. Seany manages to bring out the best in people, he made me do crazy things that I'd never have dreamt of and I love him all the more for that.
ReplyDeleteWhen we meet we are either going to get along like a house on fire or rip each other to bits, LOL. I have that effect on people as I'm shy and have been fucked over so many times; I can come across as abrasive but that's a front, I'm a puppy inside really.
Stop searching and what you seek will fall in your lap my friend x
Hun, you deserve to be happy. And some advice hun. Stop open your eyes and you are going to realise you have someone in your life who would do ANYTHING to give you what you want.
ReplyDeleteBut until that time. Stay strong xx
(P.S no its not me)