WARNING, this is a venting, not a look at me I'm sad for your own good do not pity me. In fact if anything its me highlighting my faults so I can fix them
So tonight is Friday night, and what am I doing? Well im sat here in my tracksuit trousers after doing a particularly exerting staff kata outside....and that is the total sum of any plans for my weekend.
I can never seem to make a descision about what to do on weekends. There are never any of my friends around, or if they are they conflict/dont have cash/dont want to do anything.
Tonight I am in the mood to dance, I want to let off some steam (not get drunk, I dont need to drink and I have work tomorrow) I want to do something different, I want to meet new people and make new friends. Seany seems to collect people off twitter and other sites, yet myself...well suffice to say I end up meeting the creeps not the keepers.
When I came to London I was fearless. I would wander round soho on my own and talk to randomers...admitadly it didnt do me that much good but I had a few good evenings. Now I know that if I am not careful all my young years will be spend caccooned watching tv and not doing 'owt (yes I just said 'owt ive known Seany too long) I seem to have become complaicent, which is something I cant wholely contribute to my bipolar but it doesnt help that I dont make descisions easily.
So this weekend, like every weekend I make the same pledge to myself. To tart myself up, try and look semi-passable and decide where to go and to do something...
What in reality is going to happen is Im going to shower, change into something and then wander around central London for a bit..occasionally being asked for change by homless ppl..which will be the sole human interaction I have.
I have hundreds of people on my facebook, twitter and MSN...and my well meaning friends try to convince me I'm loved by one and all...yet every weekend is like this.
On other notes me trying to hula-hoop is akin to a spastic horse....it didnt go well...perserverance and all I know but im far better with a staff.
On other other notes, I decided to get poi, didnt look at them properly, got them out at home to realise they are in majority...pink...GREAT
Music for today shall be trance to try and put myself in dancing mood...*toddles off for a shower*
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Dude, you KNOW that if I was in London we'd be out having at ball x
ReplyDeleteobvs i would have invited you out if i could have, but you wouldn't have wanted to come for obvious reasons. *hugs*
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