My little witch

Today, one of my best friends invades America. Im jealous and upset at the same time. There are a few people that just get me. Eddie is one of them, although it does help that he can read me like a book, hell the boy is probably reading my mind as I type. Eddie is somone that I only have to think "fuck it im having a bad day and want to kill somone" and he will appear saying, ok, have vodka and ciggies...whats up.

The boy has been a rock to me, especially recently and I have no idea how I will cope without him. But I will... ok we will just have to see what happens.

Actions speak louder than words, its a concept that my parents always drummed into me. For instance, I may say I love my other half, but if I dont show him, through even just little ways...then do I really love him? A few days ago, I was reminded of the friends episode where Monica and Pheobe try and cut out a friend. Again its actions, not talking/returning texts/visiting all means that actually when they say something to the effect of I still want you around, can you belive it? But then this all comes down to my strange sense of relationships.

Last night was the solstice, and Im a Witch. So I spent yesterday evening surrounded by salt, herbs and fire. It was nice to actually be able to pour out some things and just talk. Some people see prayer as an option, and yes it probably works, hell what I did last night for the majority of it was just a prayer with added theatrics. This morning however, things just feel ok. Im not too worroed about my people cutting me out, or my birthday (which is steadily going tits up). the sun is beautiful and everything just feels that there is a soft warm blanket around everyone. I love days like this, where there just seems to be balance and smiles. Yes airy fairy crap I know but stuff you lot, i think i deserve to be like this after the last few months

Finally today I got a message from the person I seem to have turned kinky. Bless him it took him 20 mins and he is now reffering to me as Master (without me telling or asking him to). its sweet, and always fun to see peoples change in mindsets. Of course its early days and I will have to see exactly how things pan out. Ive mentored enough young gay men (no that doesnt mean shag) to understand how things work.