The day after is the hardest ever. For those of you who have just joined me, shame on you!! You missed insitefull parts about me (yeah right) and of course the news that I had an interview yesterday.
Sitting back at that desk sliding into the seat knowing that there may just be, somehow a possibility that I wont be doing this for the rest of my life. I work as a receptionist, yes I paint my nails at the desk and put people who I dont like on hold...its part of the job. I like my job, I have fun people I work with, Ayo is almost as big a bitch as me, and is generally fab she makes the day go so much faster. However, its a job not a career, and while slating peoples clothes off in between calls may be fun, its hardly fulfilling.
So I await the news, the news that may or may not signify my return to a career, a career I left about a year ago. With baited breath and trepadation I need to wait out the next few days, and see what will happen.
My life will change either way: If I dont get it then I will have to re-evaluate the situation and what I want to do. If I do get it then, while more work (not nescesarily a bad thing) I will have a career, some spending money and some security. Its far easier to go back to banking if you dont have a year gap doing a dead end job.
So I wait. I will be waiting and trying to fill my time. I'm awfull at weekends. I look forward to them with baited breath but then when the time comes I have absolutly no idea as to what to do with them> the same things happen each, week each month...
This weekend, I need to break the mold. My boy is working, but I will find things to do...Hell I need something to fill my life with :P
My mind is working its way overtime. Inside I'm sure you would find a game show wheel, and a passable assistant. "Annnnd our lovely assistant will give the wheel a spin and see what you will feel like", (assistant spins wheel putting her hip into it, eyes the camera and makes a movement with her mouth that looks familiar to fellatio) "OK so you are going to feel jealous!!". And that's how I feel, with no reason why, not jealous about anything in particular just feel it...and 5 mins later its something completely different. I seem to be like the English weather, changeable and anything and everything can go through my mind in an hour.
Seems I'm not going out tonight, so...housework it is...I'm sure cleaning will help and wont make me want to strangle people or run out into the night rambling with my sword...right?
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i still have a ticket for macbeth if you want to come, ring/check online to see if there's a ticket for seany if you both wanna come. it'd finish uber late though.
ReplyDeletealso, weekend. lam. yea/nay?